Hello week 23!

I can’t believe how fast time is passing by. I’m now 23 weeks 1 day and it’s hard to wrap my mind around the fact that we will be having a sweet little girl join our family in 17 weeks! Her name will be, Emma Joy and she has already shown that she is going to be my feisty one!

Back at week 8 or so I wrote about the journey so far with Emma, you can read that here, but she wasn’t making the beginning of pregnancy very easy for this mama. A short synopses, she caused me to have a subchorionic hemorrhage that gave us a huge scare, a little bed rest and resting until our next doctor visit. Then she made me sick as a dog. This was no morning sickness, this was all day and night sickness. Nothing really helped and the medicine I could only take at night because it would make me pass out. Can’t do that when you’re at home with a toddler.

By week 17 I finally started to feel better, got back to a normal routine of life and felt more like myself again. I know Titus was finally glad to have his mom be able to function again. Then we were able to have our gender ultrasound at week 19 and found out that we were having a sweet girl!

I was so excited! I kept feeling like it was a girl but Nathan kept reminding me that I had a 50/50 chance of being right.

At that appointment the doctor brought up a concern that I hadn’t gained much weight. I already had a bump but I had only gained about 2 lbs in the entire 19 weeks. But remember I was super sick for a lot of that time and my appetite pretty much didn’t exist. She said that Emma was only in the 15th percentile and that for the next 4 weeks I needed to do my best to put on weight. Her actual orders were to eat ice cream every night. Every persons dream doctor order! But she said if it got lower than that we would have to see a specialist. I was worried after that visit but thought, You just need to gain weight! You can do this! So that’s what I did.

The next 4 weeks that’s what I did. I still ate healthy but added in snacks here and there, ate ice cream regularly and started drinking chocolate milk, sure things to make you gain weight. I was actually worried that she might tell me I put on weight to fast.

Yesterday I had a follow-up ultrasound with my next appointment. I went into the ultrasound thinking and even saying out loud to the ultrasound tech that I was sure my sweet Emma had put on weight. I had gained 8 lbs (which thankfully the doctor said was a perfect amount), I am feeling constant movement and this weekend you could even see Emma moving from the outside. After my ultrasound I had my appointment.

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During the appointment the doctor said that now Emma was in the 5th percentile for her size. She said that the next step was to followup with a perinatal specialist and have a more detailed ultrasound. My stomach sank right then. I thought I have been trying to do everything right. Eating a good amount of healthy food but also pack on the weight for my girl. It all hit me. I felt like my job when I’m pregnant is to protect, grow and nurture this sweet baby and I felt like I’ve been failing at my job. My OB reassured me that it’s very possible that my sweet, feisty Emma may just be small and that’s ok, but we just need to know for sure. That is what the specialist will tell us.

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Thankfully it’s nothing super serious and it seems like Emma is “healthy”. Strong heart beat, tons of movement and looks great in the womb. They are just concerned about her size. Nathan was not able to go with me to my appointment and I felt like I needed to tell him, my family and close friends to be in prayer for us before posting my update. I am supposed to get a call today with my appointment for the specialist and she wants me to see them sometime within a week. So that’s the plan for now.

As her mama, I just want to make sure that I’m doing the best I can for my girl. I’m giving her the nutrition and fat that she needs to grow and be strong and healthy. So we are going into this appointment thinking that we are just going to have a petite little girl. Last night Nathan joked that Titus took all of the fat genes in the family so Emma will just be our little girl! And I am totally ok with that, I just need to know that she is healthy!

So if y’all would, be praying for my sweet family this week. Pray that our Emma will keep growing strong, that the specialist will give us a great report, and that I wouldn’t let it consume my thoughts questioning if I could be doing better as her mama. I am so thankful and blessed that God choose me to take care of these amazing babies of mine!

Love,

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I’ve been away, but for a good reason.

So I’ve been pretty MIA from the blog for the past 2 weeks and I’ve hated it. But I promise I’ve had a good reason……

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Do you see my reason? Right up there. If you’re still missing it, check out Titus’ new shirt! He is going to be a big brother! We are 8 weeks pregnant and will be expanding our family October 1st. Baby #2 has been making me so sick and gave us a pretty big scare a little over a week ago.

I have always said that because of our past loss I would share our news with close friends and family as soon as we found out and then wait until my first ultrasound to make our big announcement. This baby has made that a little bit more difficult. We haven’t left the house much in the past 2 weeks. First because as soon as I hit 6 weeks I didn’t just have morning sickness, I had the wonderful all day sickness. And it was killer. Feeling like that and having a 20 month old was not easy.

Then last Saturday night after Titus had gone to bed and I was falling asleep on the couch I started bleeding. I instantly began to panic. I cried to Nathan and said to him over and over again, this isn’t fair if we lose another baby. We called our parents, then the doctor who instructed me to come right into the ED for an ultrasound. My amazing husband and supportive family and closest friends kept encouraging me that this wasn’t the end, that our sweet baby could still very well be in my belly growing along. And thankfully that’s what we learned. After a few hours in the ED, they did an ultrasound and I got to see my sweet little blueberry right there with its tiny little heart just pumping away. In that moment I felt peace, and that God was saying this is going to be ok. I was diagnosed with a Subchorionic hemorrhage and my instructions for a week were taking it easy and no picking up Titus. Even though he is 20 months old and fully able to walk, I couldn’t pick him up to comfort him, I couldn’t lay him down for naps or bed, and I couldn’t give him his baths. I also couldn’t carry laundry on top of still being pretty sick I had to have lots of help. Thankfully I am one of the most blessed people in the world and my husband really took on the super dad role and for the most part took care of Titus as much as possible. My family took him for hours at a time so that I could rest and Nathan could work, and my amazing friends came over and put groceries away, folded my clothes, and got Titus out of his crib after naps if Nathan couldn’t be here. It was a hard week for me! And to those of you that helped, Thank you again so much!

So today was my follow up, my 8 week appointment with my OB and it was a GREAT appointment. I was pretty nervous going in to it because I just didn’t know what they would say or what was going to show up on my ultrasound. But thankfully our baby has more than doubled in size, has an amazing heart rate and I have been released to normal duty. Praise God! Our sweet baby is still growing strong. I’m still feeling pretty sick, which I just keep reminding myself is a good thing. Sickness means hormones and a growing baby.

So that’s why I’ve been gone and may still miss some blogs here and there until I’m feeling back to myself again. But I will continue to keep you posted on our new amazing journey as a growing family!

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